Hindrances

I have started a Bible study focusing on freedom in Christ.  One of the questions in the first lesson was "What hindrances am I struggling with that keep me from experiencing freedom in Christ???"

I am trying to be totally honest with myself and allow God to go into each of the darkrooms of my heart and shine his light.  I have experienced a lot of rejection in my life that has made me fearful of so many things I don't even want to go there. Over the years I have built a pretty secure wall of protection around my heart to keep me from being hurt. At least I thought that's what I was doing. The thing is it keeps me from being totally present and i usually end up feeling more like a spectator than a participant in my life. Past failures...shame...health issues...being overweight...lack of self esteem...shyness...pride...lack of finances...fatigue...all help to keep me from experiencing the freedom God has for me.

I've learned that when we shut ourselves off it causes a part of ourselves to slowly die off or quit growing. I am ready to have Him open the eyes of my heart and take me deeper.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart. 

And lean not on your own understanding. 

In all your ways acknowledge Him

And He will direct your paths."

Prov 3:5-6