Pushing back

I'm not sure how it happened exactly. A lot of factors were at work. I went through an incredibly difficult time that was painful beyond words. I was treated very badly by people I thought were my friends and I withdrew. I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease that still threatens to control my life. I live in the country, off of the beaten path and lack money to participate in most activities. All of these things contributed to the isolation I now experience. I really don't feel well and lack energy that is required to put yourself out there. I would appreciate ideas to push back the darkness and loneliness that has crept into my life. Right now I feel so needy and I hate that.